It has been a whirlwind of feelings as I realize this is what I’ve been waiting for. I’ve always lived my life working towards the “whats next” so it is a beautiful lesson to realize for now, this is the moment I’ve been building up to. Things are working out as I have planned and worked for and whats left is to fill in the details… what’s next is the stuff inside the planning, this is the stuff of life. It is an exciting and comforting time for self discovery and future endeavors.
“We have to acknowledge sometimes that this moment is enough. This place is enough. I am enough.” -Sue Monk Kidd
I have been taking lots of time to just sit and be, assess my body and realign my mind. One morning as I sat by the river contemplating contentment I realized the sounds of rushing water infiltrated my meditation and thought... and that was exactly the point.
A river does not stop for the big questions of life or reason with the stones it goes over. It simply keeps on going, finding new ways of least resistance to get to its final destination. And while I relish the fact we humans can contemplate our paths and stand for the things we believe in it got me thinking that allowing yourself to slowdown and not over complicate your life is a crucial step in enjoying were we are at.
We are all here to figure out what we want from life and where we can make our mark. We each indulge in different habits and believe in a variety of ideals, but at the basis of this I think we are all looking to feel connected. Love could be described as the ultimate connection, to not only enjoy the experience or person but also to keep that feeling with you through time. The ancient greeks described 6 different types of love, or rather emotional attachment; eros (sexual passion), philia (friendship), ludus (playful), agape (selfless love, a love for all people), pragma (mature love, “standing” in love), and philautia (love of self). (Source: Roman Krznaric “How should we Live”)
It’s a beautiful thing to come to terms with the varying levels of love we can have in our lives. I believe disappointment comes from the attachment to the expectation that all love should fulfill the same niche, but this is so not the case. We must learn to feel and filter our emotions to best fit our daily lives. For the moment, I am most immersed in the pursuit of philautia, the love we have for ones self. I believe that the relationship you have with yourself should be the strongest in your life. Take all the time you need to sort your thoughts and connect with your emotions because at the end of each night and beginning of each day you and you alone wake up with your happiness (regardless of what or whom may fill the space next to you). Find what it is which gives you true happiness and seek it until it no longer brings you contentment. If it always continues to, look no further, slow down, and enjoy. You are enough. I am enough.
There is much to come and exciting progress daily with On Both Sides of Life. While in the field I am enjoying a much simpler form of living than I have been used to. My days are filled with yoga, reflection, cultivating the land, ukulele, good company, fresh produce, and of course frogging :) Stay tuned for more and please get in touch if you're interested to join the movement.